So much for keeping this thing updated..

A blog that one of my friends created reminded me of my own.  I went on to view it and so much time has passed since I last posted something.  A lot has happened since then, too.  Justin has graduated from college, Megan is in third grade, and my beloved Spencer has passed over the rainbow bridge.  I have been promoted twice at work since my last post, gained a view pounds, travelled to Europe, grew more grey hairs....well, you get the picture.
I know Justin hasn't been living at home for quite some time with being away at school, etc.  but when he graduated, a little bit more of him seemed to move away (at least that is how it felt in my heart).  I am proud of him and hope all the best for him.  As a parent you spend years and years teaching your children about life and helping them grow up to be the best person they can be and getting them ready to be on their own, but I am sorry, it sucks to let them go out into the world. I am just not good at sharing. 
Megan, my baby girl, is such a sweet girl, and so very smart, and I really enjoy spending time with her.  She has been taking piano lessons for a year now, and I am very impressed with her progress.  I hear her practicing, and it is so beautiful - even though the music is being interrupted by the occasional foot-stomping and temper trantrums because things aren't going as smoothly as she wants them to be.  Thankfully, I have been able to help her when there were times she didn't understand something, but I am not sure how much longer I will be able to do that since my musical ability is quite limited.  Maybe reading her lesson book might help me a little bit, not sure.
And, as mentioned above, in July 2011 I had to give my beloved Spencer a final goodbye kiss, it was the hardest thing ever I had to do in my life.  I had to make the decision to have him put to sleep.  There are still days when I think I made the wrong decision, even though the Vet said, it was the right thing to do.  I miss my baby boy so much, he was one of the greatest loves of my life.  I hope he knew how much I loved him and how I wish I could have done more for him. I still wonder what happened.  I have done a lot of research, maybe he was suffering from canine lupus, reading about it for weeks after his death, it seems he may have had a lot of the symptoms.  Really not sure, there were times when I thought he was poisoned by something.  It was just so hard coming home from vacation and my baby being so sick and having to spend his last days at the vet's.  I stayed up several nights with him just as I did when he joined the family and was diagnosed with parvo and I was able to nurse him back to health, well baby boy, I wish I could have done the same thing later in your life also.  Miss you!